I am back after about a year of not writing. I thought it was time for me to return after my last post about my personal struggles. I am here to stay and write some more!
What’s New ?
I’ve moved into my own house so as you can imagine its been a stressful journey. But it has been the best decision I have made. I am not fully set up in my home but slow and steady wins the race as they say.
I have recently finished the high rated “If he had been with me” by Laura Nowlin. I will post a review at the beginning of this week coming. I have been re reading the Morganville series which is one of my favourites. I have a thing for vampire books so any good ones let me know in the comments 🙂
My current read is “Slated” which is part of a trilogy set. I am enjoying it so far it is providing me with dystopian vibes. Which is another genre I love! Shout out to the “Ugly series” I have much love for them.
I hope to reach my goal for 15 books this year which seems reachable even though it says i am 4 behind target. I read books quickly normally in 2/3 days.
That is all for now. Thank you for reading don’t forget to comment any Vampire or dystopian book recommendations in the comments!
I am back at an old job that I enjoy and I have been welcomed back with open arms. It has really helped me mentally to feel wanted and welcomed! As some of you know when you get in that dark head space the little things like someone talking to you negatively can flip that switch in your head so easily. So I have helped myself by doing this to recover mentally.
But further to my progress I am losing weight by eating healthier and stopping constant takeaways. It has motivated me to continue this as my body image and self love have definitely gone down seen my depression. I do hope to get more motivated to exercise at least 3 times a week. Though struggling with my mental health still it does make it harder to motivate myself when trying to remind a float.
However, I am getting there step by step I feel better in my self and I feel I am re gaining parts of the old me I have missed such as, laughing more and smiling more. The little things really do make a difference as they say be kind to others as you don’t know what anyone is going though behind closed doors.
I think what has helped my recover journey too is talking to my dad and his wife as they are fellow suffers of depression. They understood my struggles and helped me set plans into place to recover slowly rather than overwhelming myself.
That is all my updates for the moment! Let me know in the comments and tips that has helped your mental health. Be kind always 🙂
My first personal goal is to clear my debts and my dad has really supported and helped me get out a never ending overdraft! Plus I am making instalments to pay off a credit card before the interest starts. It caused me to stress about money and paying off my debt in time but I will get there with the support around me.
To work on my fitness and mind to help me love my self again! I am going to start this by little steps of daily walks following no takeaways to help my diet. I want to get my mind back on track as well as my body 🙂
I want my own house to allow me to have my own space and area to live rather than living under someone else’s house. This will take time like everything else but I am trying to be better for myself.
Here is to me focusing on my first goals to help me heal myself to feel like me again!
Short but sweet today 🙂 Have a good evening everyone!
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Hi readers I hope everyone is doing good this April!!! I have had a bad start to April with losing a job but I will keep moving forward! Today I’m going to talk about my reading passion. I hope you enjoy 🙂
I think reading became my passion when my English teacher provide a few of us with a book called “Noughts & Crosses” by Malorie Blackman. I will never forget the feeling of getting hooked into a good book! It lets u escape your reality and become part of another. I then read The Mortal Instrument series after and since then I have been so passionate about books and reading.
It is mainly what I started this blog for too as it provided me with space to review some of the books I was given to read. But a question for my readers is do you have a favourite author or book? As a true reader I could never pick but a favourite author is easy for me as I have loved and read all her books! The author is Sarah Dessen and I think I love her because she writes such good young adult stories that kept me hooked throughout. My favourite book of hers is “Lock and Key” it is such a lovely book about first love and I recommend to read!
Also, my passion lead me to Bookstagram. It created a platform for booklovers to connect there love for reading to each other. It helped me a lot through covid times being stuck at home all the time. I have not been active at all on it recently but that is due to my mental health and I hope to find the time to connect again with the lovely platform.
The image above is taken from recent holiday in Iceland and you can never take the bookworm away from me as I saw this bar and all around was books! It was like a dream for me. But I lost my reading due to my mental health struggle and I know I will return to reading many books again just within time!!!
That’s all for todays blog I hope you enjoy reading it:) Don’t forget to comment your favourite books and authors!!
Hi, I am writing today about my personal struggles. A lot of you out there will relate to my issues and others may learn or pass by me. So enjoy the content 🙂
Issue
I have been and I am still fighting Depression. For those who don’t know what depression is I would describe it as my own mind fighting me. Personally, I have struggled with the low moods, no motivation, lose of my passions and extreme mood swings!
Now me being me thinking it is something that can be fixed straight away with a talk or medicine when that is far from it! I disguised mine with methods such as alcohol to feel that good feeling but months later it came back worse than ever.
For me I feel like I lose all control of my emotions leading me to become child like again. I know it is my mind and my choices but when you don’t know WHY it is happening a natural instinct is to lash out or isolate yourself. I mean for me it has taken control over so many aspects of my life such as, work, relationships and my body image.
A job I once loved I let my mind take over and handed in my notice after 7 years because the stress got too much for me to handle. It left me jobless but I moved to my next workplace and it was fine for a while but same happen again. I let my mind control me when I should be the one controlling it! It has lead me to jump from job to job in the look for the right one. When I look back yes some of my jobs weren’t good for me but I let my mind control what I did. I have struggled finically and even had to take time of because my emotions got the best of me.
The next big impact depression has had on me is the relationships I have with everyone. I pushed people away because I didn’t like the person I had become. I stopped visiting my friends as much because I felt like a burden to them, as I didn’t know how to explain it when I didn’t understand it. My boyfriend having to live with my extreme mood swings changing every second. The fact I dropped a pizza on the floor while trying to cut it made me scream and burst out into tears. Again lacking control of my emotions and my mind. I laugh about it now but at the time all I could think is ” why I’m not even good enough to cut a pizza.” My mind getting into that thinking pattern and changing the way I acted.
The never ending cycle of loving your body is so draining but when I add my depression on it is worse. I am over eating food as if they are my emotions. The lack of motivation to exercise to help me lose weight but also, my other condition adding to me not losing weight. The self love for my body is not there. Depression has not helped me to over come this struggle.
This little thing I took everyday to supposedly help my body and hormones but it just added to my depression. This was due to me already having an hormone imbalance in my body. The pill didn’t work for me it heightened all my emotions more leading to uncontrollable crying and angry.
Overcoming it all!
I know it is not going to be a quick fix journey for myself it will take time which I am going have to be patience with. I have started to control my breathing when I do lash out to calm my body down. I have stopped taking the pill to get my imbalanced hormones back. I have taken on a new hobby to help me relax down after my days. There are other things such as, talking to others about my issues, meeting up with friends and reminding myself I control me not my body controlling me 🙂
That’s all for today if anyone has any other good advice please comment below to help me and fellow readers out there 🙂 And if your struggling remember you are not alone!
I have been struggling to be motivated due to my mental health. I am back to try and post weekly updates of my writing or what I am up to. So today I am leaving you all with a poem. Enjoy 🙂
I met new boyfriend by training him on the job at maccies. We was friends first then fell for each other (cliché I know haha). So, yeah been busy going on dates with him and enjoying life. My new number one supporter 🙂
Mental Health Struggle 😦
It started last year after I got my heartbroken by someone. It was a downward spiral from there and it made me not eat and my emotions were really low 😦 My body image was effected by my moods and emotions. I didn’t feel like me and I started hurting myself to feel alive and to use it as a way to say it was my fault I was a mess. I now only get phrases when I breakdown or feel low now which is progress rather than feeling it all the time. I think one of my problems was I didn’t like opening up about my emotions to anyone and I’m still working on that.
Loss Of Motivation
Due to my mental health struggle I lost what I was passionate about which is reading and writing. I went a year without reading compared to the year before were I was reading most nights. I neglected them and myself so, here I am writing again and slowly getting back into reading 🙂
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