I have been struggling to be motivated due to my mental health. I am back to try and post weekly updates of my writing or what I am up to. So today I am leaving you all with a poem. Enjoy 🙂

Fire

Burning with desire to fly.

Swirling with your magic,

waiting, thinking and listening.

………………………………………….

Starting with a small burst of light.

Growing into something dangerous.

Spreading around me like the air I breath.

………………………………………….

Stop! Stop! Stop!

It has grown too wild!

Control these flames I cannot tame!

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Liquid dripping onto the light that has flamed.

Extinguished the heat and danger.

For now it smokes away.

Thank you for reading 🙂

x Vick x

Wave

Sailing through each day waiting, hoping for change.

There you stand tall to the eye but small to me.

The change in you is strange.

Moving freely like we all want right?

Crashing around with no control!

Will no one help me?

Stop! moving forward and back

Stay still and shine brightly!

I hear you all the time, yet I don’t see

You destroy, chase and bring people down.

But you cheer people’s sprits with your presence

Danger surrounds you as you summon people in.

Sinking deeply surround by the waves you created.

Holding my breath, hoping for waves to take me away,

Waiting, Moving, trying as the waves crash against me.

Thanks for reading 🙂

x Vick x

Hello fellow readers, I am back after time away.

Where have I been?

• New Relationship
• Mental health struggle
• loss of motivation

New Relationship

I met new boyfriend by training him on the job at maccies. We was friends first then fell for each other (cliché I know haha). So, yeah been busy going on dates with him and enjoying life. My new number one supporter 🙂

Mental Health Struggle 😦

It started last year after I got my heartbroken by someone. It was a downward spiral from there and it made me not eat and my emotions were really low 😦 My body image was effected by my moods and emotions. I didn’t feel like me and I started hurting myself to feel alive and to use it as a way to say it was my fault I was a mess. I now only get phrases when I breakdown or feel low now which is progress rather than feeling it all the time. I think one of my problems was I didn’t like opening up about my emotions to anyone and I’m still working on that.

Loss Of Motivation

Due to my mental health struggle I lost what I was passionate about which is reading and writing. I went a year without reading compared to the year before were I was reading most nights. I neglected them and myself so, here I am writing again and slowly getting back into reading 🙂

Next time-

I am going to write a poem to get me back into it! Also, want to start doing weekly updates on my blog.

Thank you for reading 🙂 I will be back soon with a new post

X Vick X

Hard to the touch, Clear to see and hard to forget.

The touch you left me confused as the texture changed.

Melting as I cradle the LAST of your touch!

See through but I was blinded by the shine.

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It imperilled right through my heart !

Slipping through my fingers, hoping, longing and trying to forget.

Lasting longer than it should, why can’t I let you go ??

Clear to see but hard to forget!

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Flowing as melted water through my hands,

Not wanting to lose you out my life.

All I want is to wish you the best but forget you.

Ice like you piercing my heart and brain!

Been a while but here’s a new poem by me 🥰

Placed in front of me lose and detached

I slowly wrapped it around my fingers,

Holding , hoping for a chance to that won’t happen.

Lose and unbound to anyone or anything

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I tried to make you mine but no such luck.

The string snapping like my heart shattering.

The snapping so unbearable around me

What can I do? What should I say ? Should I say anything?

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Slowly, consuming my fingers with each string.

Let me be free from this feeling of pain.

I don’t want you stuck on my brain !!

Trying to break through the strings to get back to the old us!

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Stringing the pieces back for I don’t want to lose you !

You mean to much to me I just need to loosen the strings !

Give me time to heal, give me time to suffer,

Give me time to go back to normal.

Thanks for reading !!

X Vick X

New Year New poem to read !!! Hope you enjoy reading it 🙂

Floating all around me so delicate and light,

you surprised me with your presence!

Drifting slowly, the breeze to take its toll.

Naturally blowing hot and cold.

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But sometimes you vanish like you wasn’t there.

Changing direction never knowing which way next.

Hoping for a gush of strong wind to show me the way!

Breezing through the days just as it was.

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Your presence comes and goes like the shift in weather.

Blowing strong sometimes but nonexistence the next.

How do I know which way to go ?

Wandering through the gaps to breath the air you breath.

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Inhaling the air in which you blow around me waiting….

For nothing, something or anything.

Make a sound or be quite that is the choice!

Slowly consuming all around me for the decision to be made!

Thanks for reading 🙂 Lets make this year the best!!!

X Vick X

New poem by me 🙂

Open up for all to see,

blinded by those eyes and smile.

All seemed so picture perfected.

Yet, the cracks begin to appear.

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I look and see the girl who waited.

The one who put herself through the pain,

the pain of delusion and self belief.

Shattered glass, just like my heart, dreams all over the floor!

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Please let me look and see the beauty.

A reflection looking back at me for hope.

It doesn’t change it stays the same.

I look and see all the pieces I need to pick up.

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Broken, tired and in pain.

Longing for what I want to see!

I start to pick up the broken pieces.

Looking at the reflection, I smile.

Thank you if you got this far and read my work 🙂

x Vick x

It started small little drops on me.

Then it kept coming down on me.

I tried to stop it but i couldn’t.

Please someone bring me the sun!

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They are getting bigger now i need it to pass.

I know you don’t want to chase,

But i fall so easily for that smile and laugh.

Dripping on me i cant get the drops of me!

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Clear as glass yet, i don’t move.

It is falling heavy now and i haven’t stopped!

Please send me the light to get me through the rain.

Let me release the droplets off me now.

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Let it pour one last time,

Let me enjoy the feeling one last time,

I was lifted for them moments but now it is a burden.

Oh look, the rain is stopping for now i can have the sun!

Hi readers ! This a review of this amazing book i loved so much!!!

I mean wow 🤩!!!
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
This book had everything I loved!!!
The beginning got straight into the plot so it wasn’t dragging. Addie is the main character in this novel. I really liked her and got to connect with her as she goes off to save her brother. I love a strong independent women protagonist!

The book kept a fast pace throughout the book and it kept me hooked in with all the choices and challenges she had to face. Another character I loved was Claire she was always helpful and protective! I didn’t really like Lyle don’t know why I just felt didn’t connect with him the same ☺️
I liked the concept of this book as well as no other author that I know or have read had taken hearts 💕 and used them to drive a story.

Now if you see my reviews the endings of books rather make or break it for me ! This ending didn’t disappoint it leaves you wanting more and I definitely need the next book now !!!!

🌼 Overall, it kept high fantasy throughout the book with little bits of romance. (I like romance in fantasy) I couldn’t put it down !! (Life got in the way of my reading haha 😂 would finished it quicker!)

One of fav quotes was ‘After all, what good was a dead heart 💓?’ I found it a bit cliche but still loved it 💖
If you love fantasy or want a change in genre check this book out one of my favourite reads this month !!!

Ps- the cover design is beautiful 😍

Thanks for reading! 🙂

x Vick x