I am back at an old job that I enjoy and I have been welcomed back with open arms. It has really helped me mentally to feel wanted and welcomed! As some of you know when you get in that dark head space the little things like someone talking to you negatively can flip that switch in your head so easily. So I have helped myself by doing this to recover mentally.
But further to my progress I am losing weight by eating healthier and stopping constant takeaways. It has motivated me to continue this as my body image and self love have definitely gone down seen my depression. I do hope to get more motivated to exercise at least 3 times a week. Though struggling with my mental health still it does make it harder to motivate myself when trying to remind a float.
However, I am getting there step by step I feel better in my self and I feel I am re gaining parts of the old me I have missed such as, laughing more and smiling more. The little things really do make a difference as they say be kind to others as you don’t know what anyone is going though behind closed doors.
I think what has helped my recover journey too is talking to my dad and his wife as they are fellow suffers of depression. They understood my struggles and helped me set plans into place to recover slowly rather than overwhelming myself.
That is all my updates for the moment! Let me know in the comments and tips that has helped your mental health. Be kind always 🙂
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Hi readers I hope everyone is doing good this April!!! I have had a bad start to April with losing a job but I will keep moving forward! Today I’m going to talk about my reading passion. I hope you enjoy 🙂
I think reading became my passion when my English teacher provide a few of us with a book called “Noughts & Crosses” by Malorie Blackman. I will never forget the feeling of getting hooked into a good book! It lets u escape your reality and become part of another. I then read The Mortal Instrument series after and since then I have been so passionate about books and reading.
It is mainly what I started this blog for too as it provided me with space to review some of the books I was given to read. But a question for my readers is do you have a favourite author or book? As a true reader I could never pick but a favourite author is easy for me as I have loved and read all her books! The author is Sarah Dessen and I think I love her because she writes such good young adult stories that kept me hooked throughout. My favourite book of hers is “Lock and Key” it is such a lovely book about first love and I recommend to read!
Also, my passion lead me to Bookstagram. It created a platform for booklovers to connect there love for reading to each other. It helped me a lot through covid times being stuck at home all the time. I have not been active at all on it recently but that is due to my mental health and I hope to find the time to connect again with the lovely platform.
The image above is taken from recent holiday in Iceland and you can never take the bookworm away from me as I saw this bar and all around was books! It was like a dream for me. But I lost my reading due to my mental health struggle and I know I will return to reading many books again just within time!!!
That’s all for todays blog I hope you enjoy reading it:) Don’t forget to comment your favourite books and authors!!
Hi, I am writing today about my personal struggles. A lot of you out there will relate to my issues and others may learn or pass by me. So enjoy the content 🙂
Issue
I have been and I am still fighting Depression. For those who don’t know what depression is I would describe it as my own mind fighting me. Personally, I have struggled with the low moods, no motivation, lose of my passions and extreme mood swings!
Now me being me thinking it is something that can be fixed straight away with a talk or medicine when that is far from it! I disguised mine with methods such as alcohol to feel that good feeling but months later it came back worse than ever.
For me I feel like I lose all control of my emotions leading me to become child like again. I know it is my mind and my choices but when you don’t know WHY it is happening a natural instinct is to lash out or isolate yourself. I mean for me it has taken control over so many aspects of my life such as, work, relationships and my body image.
A job I once loved I let my mind take over and handed in my notice after 7 years because the stress got too much for me to handle. It left me jobless but I moved to my next workplace and it was fine for a while but same happen again. I let my mind control me when I should be the one controlling it! It has lead me to jump from job to job in the look for the right one. When I look back yes some of my jobs weren’t good for me but I let my mind control what I did. I have struggled finically and even had to take time of because my emotions got the best of me.
The next big impact depression has had on me is the relationships I have with everyone. I pushed people away because I didn’t like the person I had become. I stopped visiting my friends as much because I felt like a burden to them, as I didn’t know how to explain it when I didn’t understand it. My boyfriend having to live with my extreme mood swings changing every second. The fact I dropped a pizza on the floor while trying to cut it made me scream and burst out into tears. Again lacking control of my emotions and my mind. I laugh about it now but at the time all I could think is ” why I’m not even good enough to cut a pizza.” My mind getting into that thinking pattern and changing the way I acted.
The never ending cycle of loving your body is so draining but when I add my depression on it is worse. I am over eating food as if they are my emotions. The lack of motivation to exercise to help me lose weight but also, my other condition adding to me not losing weight. The self love for my body is not there. Depression has not helped me to over come this struggle.
This little thing I took everyday to supposedly help my body and hormones but it just added to my depression. This was due to me already having an hormone imbalance in my body. The pill didn’t work for me it heightened all my emotions more leading to uncontrollable crying and angry.
Overcoming it all!
I know it is not going to be a quick fix journey for myself it will take time which I am going have to be patience with. I have started to control my breathing when I do lash out to calm my body down. I have stopped taking the pill to get my imbalanced hormones back. I have taken on a new hobby to help me relax down after my days. There are other things such as, talking to others about my issues, meeting up with friends and reminding myself I control me not my body controlling me 🙂
That’s all for today if anyone has any other good advice please comment below to help me and fellow readers out there 🙂 And if your struggling remember you are not alone!
Hi to all my readers 🙂 This my first book review on one of my fav book series. So have a look see what you think.
The book is based on character of Helen who has weird nightmares and is drawn to Lucas who has no idea of their secrets. Fate drives this story about repeating of history, as Helen unlocks the secrets of her ancestry and she realises the myths are true.
From the title of the book Starcrossed suggests, from my
point of view that people cannot be together for some reason. This is what the
novel does it creates obstacles in which two people from different backgrounds
face.
My view on the novel, is it set out background of the story
and where it was going in the first few chapters. It creates hatred towards characters
because of the past. “Meeting his eyes was an awakening” This quote so short
and sweet as it gets straight to the point.
“Gorge-ousl! I can
see why she’s got Luke’s panties in a twist, she said with a cheeky grin.” “No!
That’s all done with!”
This is one of my fav quotes in the story. It allows to show
the cheesy romance in the air and, the kind of character Helen is. It brings in
Greek myths and all things Zeus etc…
The genre is Fantasy Romance one of my fav genres ha-ha. There
are books like Percy Jackson that also, relate to Greek gods and myths but I feel
that this series connected with me through the romance storyline and the plot
unfolding through each chapter.
With all books there are negatives however, as my rating is
5* I don’t think it could get any better but, that maybe due to my love of
these types of books. One thing makes book so great is the characters
throughout the book and there are twists at every corner.
100% Recommend a read of this book! Don’t forget the other two DREAMLESS AND GODDESS!
Thanks for reading! 🙂 Maybe post new poem later or tomorrow
Hi to whoever reads my posts haha 🙂 I am doing update on the things I will being posting. First background, I hope to one day write my own novel in my spare time. Writing is something we use to express our imagination. I will be posting parts of my writing from poems to chapters of stories i have started. I am hoping to gain experience from others and to improve my writing. I will also post recommendations of books to read considering i have a very full book shelf!
Who am I?
I am currently finishing my law degree with exams fast approaching in May. Writing is more of a hobby to me and is one of the reasons i thought of creating blog website. Reading is one of my passions that i hope to carry throughout my life! 🙂 But I don’t think that will change as my bookshelf is holding over 100 books haha.
Yep, like many writers reading started mine as in high school i got given book called Noughts and Crosses (MUST READ!). Then after that i have been reading as many books ever since. Although I hate English now I love being creative with my own writing.
Next Time…
Once a upon a time there was a little girl named
Ivy. She had long silky hair which was black with blonde tints, some called her
a witch.
Explore the opening scene to a story I have started:). Hoping to post weekly aiming for Wednesdays or Saturdays.
Thanks for Reading my post 🙂 Stay tuned for next time.
Writing is a way to express emotions and feelings that some understand and others don’t. We all have creativity. Some choose to express through words and others like to draw or paint and more. Bellow are two poems i wrote to express my feelings not only to others but myself. Enjoy! 🙂
Crush
My eyes glistening with happiness and hate,
Blue icy eyes that dropped me in an ocean,
Chestnut hair so dark and mysterious with that irresistible
attraction,
Crush me in your heart and love me.
Talking to those eyes I drowned right in you could speak
anything,
One time I think I stopped breathing my heart felt no longer
mine but yours,
That bitch liked him too well I will kill you and boil you!
Feeling that could lift my sprits with that one site howmuch I prayed you loved me back.
The special time of day which kept me on my toes for this
feeling to acquire.
The talking stopped oh why you broke my heart and started to
ignore me,
The tears never came however much I tried I just kept loving
him.
Hate is what was supposed to come but I could never stoploving for my heart is stuck in that one beat.
Crush how ironic as you crushed my heart for some skinny
bitch girl!
I loved you first why go for looks just because you will get
a good fuck.
Karma is a bitch she dumped you for a better guy but still I
feel you didn’t deserve it,
I loved you and still do and now my heart is stuck on you.
Ocean
Ocean
Ocean, you call me to your waters.
Your smooth but ruff emotions glisten,
In the wet, cool, moist texture,
the rushing in and out of your waves.
The sleepless sound draws me in.
The emotions run high as you clash away.
The story keeps flowing through your veins.
By now people must be sick of you, yet it entertains.
No one can build you, yet you flow,
You provide life when no one else will,
Yet you still always frill.
I look in the blue and I see me.
You scare a lot through the lives you take.
I understand that it is not you that chooses,
yet the souls you take still leaves bruises.
I look in your water and I see the grief that always loses.
Thanks for reading. Hope to write more imaginative writing soon 🙂
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